When Two Worlds Collide
I am constantly amazed at the potpourri of emotions my little grandaughter evokes in me. When she wraps her little arms around my neck and plants a big kiss on my cheek (or anywhere it seems to find a landing spot) and I hear the words, "I wuv you Gammy", it's then our two worlds collide. I look at her and see a little one with years ahead of her to make wishes and dreams come true. I then look at myself and see my waning years and know that my time for making dreams and wishes come true has all but come to an end. The should've, could've, would'ves begin to spin around in my head and I know then and there that I will do all I can to help this little one make as many of her dreams and wishes come true as possible.
Being a grandparent is really a blessing. You get a second chance at parenthood without all the responsibility of nighttime feedings, diaper changing, nights spent on a rocking chair as you try to soothe a colicky tummy and then turn around and go to work the next day. Since I'm a "Gammy" now I find I have more patience then I had when raising my son. I'm less apt to be so strict. When walking with this little one I fit my pace to hers. No need to hurry. Time is on our side. And when this precious angle looks at me with her big brown eyes it's almost as though she can see into my soul and she knows the impact she has made on my life thus far. She asks nothing of me or from me. She trusts me and that is an awe inspiring feeling. And when I sing to her? She actually likes my deep alto voice and will look and listen with much more intensity then her 20 months would denote. We have a communication between the two of us. A communication that goes beyond words. She's just an innocent child as yet untouched by the world. She loves me unconditionally. No kiss or hug means more to me then hers. And one day when I am no longer here, I hope that I will have made a mark on this little ones life. That she will remember me as being a positive influence in her life. And may she pass that legacy on to her own grandchildren.
Being a grandparent is really a blessing. You get a second chance at parenthood without all the responsibility of nighttime feedings, diaper changing, nights spent on a rocking chair as you try to soothe a colicky tummy and then turn around and go to work the next day. Since I'm a "Gammy" now I find I have more patience then I had when raising my son. I'm less apt to be so strict. When walking with this little one I fit my pace to hers. No need to hurry. Time is on our side. And when this precious angle looks at me with her big brown eyes it's almost as though she can see into my soul and she knows the impact she has made on my life thus far. She asks nothing of me or from me. She trusts me and that is an awe inspiring feeling. And when I sing to her? She actually likes my deep alto voice and will look and listen with much more intensity then her 20 months would denote. We have a communication between the two of us. A communication that goes beyond words. She's just an innocent child as yet untouched by the world. She loves me unconditionally. No kiss or hug means more to me then hers. And one day when I am no longer here, I hope that I will have made a mark on this little ones life. That she will remember me as being a positive influence in her life. And may she pass that legacy on to her own grandchildren.
posted by Gammys Perspective at 9:22 PM
2 Comments:
dammit, that brought tears to my eyes, and i have a reputation to uphold!!
"and one day when i am no longer here"
these words make me cry...
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